In every artists life, failure and disappointment can be lurking around each risk we take. One of the best parts of this evolution to me, is the thrill I get when I try something new. Sometimes it works out.......other times I introduce myself to my next learning curve. Today was the day of the big pit fire we have all been working towards for over two weeks. The pieces were bisque fired and ready. The pit was built and slowly prepped for the stacking of the work. With this type of firing, no one ever knows which pieces will come through the fire more beautiful than when they went in and which pieces will become lessons for the future.
My lesson for today? Losing four pieces to the fire........my first lidded bean pot, two large wall carvings and a beautifully simple pot. Did it hurt? Oh HELL YES. Am I disappointed? A little. Will I do it again? ABSOLUTELY!!!
I have spoken about frustration and fortitude before. This is simply part of the learning curve. I have been humbled by the fire once again and I can assure you it won't be the last time.
Clarence suggested that I take the pieces that didn't make it through and place them around the ranch as a way of giving back. I took one of the broken pieces and walked to the Labyrinth, sitting it on one of the rocks with the mountains as a backdrop. I have been given so many moments of clarity walking this path that I wanted to give a gift of gratitude back. I will place the other pieces in the coming days before I leave. Although my heart hurt today, I realized that by doing this, part of me will always be here........giving Thanks.