The truth is, Dearest Fears, I have met someone else......Read More
There are times in our lives where change is not only possible, it is inevitable. As I grow, the things, relationships and general "stuff" that once brought a smile to my face now weigh heavy on my shoulders. A friend once told me that "sometimes.....darlin'......your appointment is just over." I have thought back on that many times and realized there is great truth in that simple wisdom. We, as a general rule, don't like change. It makes us feel uncomfortable in our own skin; perhaps it's the unknown that makes us nervous, or the fear of making a wrong choice or never wanting to appear less than certain about our direction in life. But here's the kicker.........life doesn't come with any guarantees. One day you could wake up and realize that your appointment is over with this world. Yes, change can be overwhelming, especially when it's unbidden and unwelcome. But somewhere, along the line, most of us have secretly wished and dreamt of a new day, a new start, a new lease.
Since I am one of the many that have mixed emotions regarding change I am paying attention to the state of being of "simplicity". I ask myself everyday, do I want, need, desire or feel obligated to whatever is in front of me. I have a grand tendency to make everything way too complicated. So I am taking a simpler approach. If I am wrestling with something, I take it into myself and see how it "feels" in my body. If I instantly become anxious, nervous or filled with despair, I realize that this may not be the wise choice for me. If, instead, I take something in and feel a sense of calm, clarity and instantly, without recognizing it, take a big ol' deep breath, I get a sneaking suspicion I am onto what works for me.
Life is going to happen no matter how much I try and hold it off. So, as with life, so it is with clay. There are times when only the simple approach works. I have a funny feeling it's that way ALL the time.......
A few months back, a piece of art was stolen from my tent at a local art show. To say that it was a surreal experience would be an understatement. After my initial emotional response of betrayal, shock, grief and anger, a very quiet calm settled over me. It's almost impossible to explain - it was if I intuitively knew that this event was larger than myself or my art. It has turned out to be the start of a very poignant and profound phase of my life. As a person, I tend to fall into my thought process. Getting out of my own head can, at times, be quite a chore. However, the more I thought about this event, the more I gave it up to the universe. Somehow, this experience has allowed me to reach even further than I thought possible just a few short months ago. When we lose something or someone we cherish, there are a number of ways we can respond. I decided to respond as if I had nothing to lose. I read a quote recently that said something like this......"Enjoy your life but don't become attached to it". Letting go allows us to loosen our grip and ease into our future - not as a leaf blowing in the wind but as a person with intention and clarity who simply decides to acknowledge that there is, in fact, a flow to life.
Since I started touching clay just a mere 4 years ago, I have never attempted to recreate a piece. My motto is to Let Go......Let Clay. I simply start a piece and the clay takes if from there as long as I step out of the way and let the process unfold. However, since all of this occurred, I knew Floating Lotus would reappear. It only took 2 1/2 short months but she is sitting on my table, smiling at me. She has been resurrected a little larger, a little more bold and confident, her petals standing a little taller and yet with more grace of movement than the original. For that, she has earned the name Dancing Lotus.